I guess I will have to let this ride on and see where it takes me. It’s hard opening up to people that aren’t my sisters or Michael. I kind of miss having him as a friend, but oh well, nothing I can do there.
I can’t hold myself back in hopes that I will get a response, I can’t wait either. I’m just going to have to do what I feel and hope I’m not being an idiot. It’s crazy how much is changing so fast. People are going and new ones are coming. It makes me wonder what else will appear before me and if so, will it have any kind of impact? Will I notice it when it shows up? These are the thoughts I have. These are the thoughts that keep me up at night.
I’m afraid I will fall back into a bad place, the feelings come creeping back and I’m doing my best to just ignore it. But I’m staying hopeful because I was told that as long as you’re willing, you’re trying.